This is really out of control... he is losing it!!
i SO HATE MY DAD!!!
About everything.
he left us so many times but we don't want him around here!!!!!!
fuck him

I love my mom and i'm at the states right now and this is okay
i don't know .... fuck everything.

Today I talked with my GF if u remember..
And she told me she's datinge with someone else.
and that she's not going to wait for me to come back.
I can't belive this.
now i can see who she really is.
nothing but a loser
fuck her.
But from the other hand i can understand her...
I'm far away from her and she don't love me anymore

:(

I miss you.
Please don't leave me all by myself
I need you more then anything
But after all... U CAN GO FUCK URSELF!!!!!!!
OR U'R DOUCHER NEW BF GONNA DO IT!




So tommorow we have a football game in the park
and it's so cool.
people here can really play!!
I'm Lazy
I want to die.
maybe next year ha ? :)

I'm boerd so I write.. lol

So my brother is about to come back from the army and the whole fammily is doing a hugh dinner and invite everyone and it's really cool and fun... But i think when i'll comeback no one will wait for me and do a hugh dinner...
NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME!
And i don't care.. I don't need them! I can get along by myself.
And i will make it to NY my home!!!!!
And i will play with the Giants (lol!!!!!!!!!) but this is a dream so i'm allowd !!

This blogspot Is full of asians and africans..
where is the normal people? lol
I'm not racict (I'm jewish myslef lol )
ahahaaaaaa I'm freaking out!!!!!



I want to be far away from here...
I want to go home~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IDF

I can't belive that i'm going to give my life to a coutry.
I want to be so much things and maybe i'm not gonna b 1 of them!
maybe i'll die in the battel or somthing...
my mom don't want to hear about it but she's want me to go to be a fighter.
ehmmm mom!! please let me do what ever i want!!
leave me alone!
and the whole fammily is perreshuring
and i dunno i don't care to die.
when everyone is going to talk about me.
and who i was

blaaa kid in my age don't need to think about thos kind of things!!!
i suppost to think about the college and how i'm going to fuck that girl
not about how to die in the army.
i belive in the right-wing of israel but u know...
i prefer to live...
if it's o.k. in this days.


FUCK THIS SHIT!!!!
anyway no 1 read's here...

Today

So now I came back from my friend house.. we recorded a new song of us.
It's became so beautiful! I love my music.
I'm playing on the guitar like 9 years and piano for 5 years and also bass guitar.
I want to be a musician but i know this is fucked up dream and it's never going to happend.
I do belive in myself but like 99 % of the teens in our days want to be musicians and i know there's batters then me so u know..
anyway i was with my friend end we ate pizza and played on the X-box and it was fun and funny but i miss my hommies in NY!!!!
I miss my real home!
i miss daniel the sk8er ... the most asshole dude in the world! but my bf evaaa!!
i miss travis the most coolest dudeeeeeee!!!!!1
i miss my girl melenyyy
and all the gang u know!!!!!!!!

I didn't say Israel it's not a good place to live in!
I'ts one of the beutiful places in the world and warm nice peoples but i don't belong here... uknow...
fuck that shit..
tommorow i have lessons in math until 2 !!! fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk


Hoo another somthing i forgot..
Here in Israel they have american football!!
yes !! they have a league!
and i started to play with them and they really good.. (I was one of the best RB in the hood!!)



Ok I really have to go ...
cya and leave a comment!!!!!!!!!!

Hi Everyone,
So this is the first time that i'm writhing on this blog and here i'm going to write about my life.
I'm 18 years old and i'm living in Israel.
Before me and my family moved here my life was perfect in U.S.
i had a lot!!! of friends and my grades was exelent! i had the most beautiful gf in the world!
and now i moved here and i have nothing!!!
I hate this place!! I dunno why!! I DONT BELONG HERE!!!!!
And my parents want me to go to the army! and i don't want!!! I want to go to america and go to college!!!!!!!!

WTF am i suppos to do!?!?!
please help me!!